The Face I Wear

The face I wear is never sad.
It's never angry and never mad.

The face I wear never cries.
It's never bitter but it always lies.

The face I wear covers my pain.
The face I wear covers my fear.
The face I wear hides who I am.
It hides my sorrows and hides my pain.

The face I would like to see.
But the face I wear is always a lie.

The face I wear is what you see.
But that face
is not really me

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Before the Sun

The alarm rings in my ear.
The morning light is still so far away.
I pull my covers over my head and groan.
Another day the same as the rest.
The smell of coffee fills the air.
The warm shower meets me with another groan.

I drive to work the moon greets me for.
The sun has not awoken yet.
Same roads each day,
I sip my coffee as I drive.
Driving in silence as I try to wake.

Each morning more of the same.

The alarm rings in my ear.
The morning light is still so far away.
I pull my covers over my head and groan.

Another day the same as the rest.
The smell of coffee fills the air.
The warm shower meets me with another groan.

I drive to work the moon greets me for,
The sun has not awoken yet.
I sip my coffee as I drive,
Driving in silence as I try to wake.

Each morning more of the same.

The alarm rings in my ear.
The morning light is still so far away.
I pull my covers over my head and groan.

Another day the same as the rest.
The smell of coffee fills the air.
The warm shower meets me with another groan.

I must face today another day.

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Thou Shalt Weep No More

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Battered, Bleeding, and bruised
My spirit sags as it weeps but
No more
Distressed, lacerated, and mauled
I lay on the floor but
I weep no more

No more shall I weep
No more shall I mourn
A friendship that rots away
As it decays my the promise
Thou Shalt Weep No more

I gave you hope, I gave you trust
Now you scamper off like the
Rat you have proven to be
The cankerous promises
The corrosive lies of
Friendship and devotion

No more shall I weep
No more shall I mourn
A friendship that rots away
As it decays my heart
Thou shalt weep no more

Innocent, pure and unadulterated
Friendship tossed away
As it festers into nothingness.

No more shall I weep
No more shall I mourn
A friendship that rots away
As it decays my heart
Thou Shalt Weep no more

I am free from those
Burdens that lock us in place
I never again will fall prey
To those whose corrode the purity of friendship

No more shall I weep
No more shall I mourn
A friendship that rots away
As it decays my heart
Thou Shalt Weep No more

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Missed Chances

Two puzzle pieces lost in the shuffle.
A King without his Queen, the knight without his shield.

Two worlds, never to become one.
A tale never to be told.

Different times, different places, different lives.
So much alike, yet so far apart.

Missed chances, missed lives.
Moving in different ways, never the same.

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Be Still

My head won’t be quiet.

Spinning and running it never stops.
Songs playing at the same time.
Thoughts of the day and days before.
Memories keeping me awake.
It Plaques my existence.

Be still my soul
Be still and sleep.

Sitting up in bed while everyone sleeps.
Wondering when it will be my turn.
When will the voices cease and I can rest?
Replaying events of the past.
Wishing they were different, Wishing I could change. 

Be still my soul.
Be still and sleep.

Be still and hear God.
Block all else out and only hear Him.

Pacing back and forth,
And rocking.
The noises never stop.
Pieces of songs, bits of advice.
Filling my mind keeping me awake.

Be still my soul.
Be still and sleep.
Be still my soul.
Be still and rest.

Block all the noise out. 
And only hear God’s voice.

Be still and only hear him.
Block all else out and only hear him.
He is calling to you!

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Until You

Love was always a puzzling thought. 
An ideal that was absent for most. 
Love was something foreign in my mind. 
Love was lost to me until you. 

Until you, I had no idea what love was. 
Until you, I was selfish and self-centered. 
Until you, love was just an idea. 
Until you, I was selfish and self-centered. 
Until you, love was just a word. 

Love was a common work, But the impact of such love.
I had not known until you. 
You came into my world, 
You knew my voice. 
My heart filled with joy. 

Until you, I had no idea what love was. 
Until you, I was selfish and self-centered. 
Until you, love was just an idea. 
Until you, I was selfish and self-centered. 
Until you, love was just a word. 

You held my finger, 
And I knew love was. 

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Never Change Your Heart

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You give to others, but it is not enough.
They want more and more until you have nothing to give. 
When you have nothing to give, they leave.
They leave in search of another that can give more.

This is not your fault, 
Your act of kindness was from your heart. 
Your love does not go unnoticed. 

You may feel foolish for helping,
but never feel foolish for doing the right thing. 
For those who take advantage of you, have to live with themselves.
Never change who you are.

Never change your heart.
It is the others who need to change who they are. 

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Changes

I see the changes in you. 
It saddens me but you won’t know or care.
Do you feel lost? Do you want to scream? 
Do you see and feel the changes in yourself?

I know we don’t talk anymore;  
I know you don’t want me around. 
But then I see the changes in you and they worry me.

I pray for you, but you will never know.  
I pray that you see the light again.
I pray that you surround yourself with goodness.

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I am Tired

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I am tired of pretending that I am okay when I’m not.
I am tired of trying to be someone that I’m not.
You don’t like me as I am; you want me to change, but why.
I am tired of making excuses for how I act.
Why did I try to work on things when no one else cares?


I am tired of being lonely but if that is what I have to do to be myself so be it.
I am angry and want to last out but it won’t matter.


Nothing I say or do matters to them.
They don’t care what happens to me.


I want to cry and lay on the bed all day, but it won’t solve anything.
I want to lash out but it won’t matter.
Nothing matters.

Biting and Gnawing

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Why can’t you be happy?

Why do you delight in others’ misery?

You can’t be happy for your friends?

You can’t stand when they are happy?

The pain of regret will come to bite you.

You will lose out and others will move on.

The cut will deepen as the time passes.

It will gnaw away at you until there is nothing left.

Your flesh will rot away as maggots eat you alive. 

It will fester and scab over, leaving you as horrid as you are now.

Opening again at each new sting.

The sting of pain and regret will eat at you,

gnawing away the new skin and devouring you whole.

The life of one with no happiness and the life of one who is not happy for others.

Is an empty, useless, decrepit life.