Before the Sun

The alarm rings in my ear.
The morning light is still so far away.
I pull my covers over my head and groan.
Another day the same as the rest.
The smell of coffee fills the air.
The warm shower meets me with another groan.

I drive to work the moon greets me for.
The sun has not awoken yet.
Same roads each day,
I sip my coffee as I drive.
Driving in silence as I try to wake.

Each morning more of the same.

The alarm rings in my ear.
The morning light is still so far away.
I pull my covers over my head and groan.

Another day the same as the rest.
The smell of coffee fills the air.
The warm shower meets me with another groan.

I drive to work the moon greets me for,
The sun has not awoken yet.
I sip my coffee as I drive,
Driving in silence as I try to wake.

Each morning more of the same.

The alarm rings in my ear.
The morning light is still so far away.
I pull my covers over my head and groan.

Another day the same as the rest.
The smell of coffee fills the air.
The warm shower meets me with another groan.

I must face today another day.

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Thou Shalt Weep No More

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Battered, Bleeding, and bruised
My spirit sags as it weeps but
No more
Distressed, lacerated, and mauled
I lay on the floor but
I weep no more

No more shall I weep
No more shall I mourn
A friendship that rots away
As it decays my the promise
Thou Shalt Weep No more

I gave you hope, I gave you trust
Now you scamper off like the
Rat you have proven to be
The cankerous promises
The corrosive lies of
Friendship and devotion

No more shall I weep
No more shall I mourn
A friendship that rots away
As it decays my heart
Thou shalt weep no more

Innocent, pure and unadulterated
Friendship tossed away
As it festers into nothingness.

No more shall I weep
No more shall I mourn
A friendship that rots away
As it decays my heart
Thou Shalt Weep no more

I am free from those
Burdens that lock us in place
I never again will fall prey
To those whose corrode the purity of friendship

No more shall I weep
No more shall I mourn
A friendship that rots away
As it decays my heart
Thou Shalt Weep No more

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Until You

Love was always a puzzling thought. 
An ideal that was absent for most. 
Love was something foreign in my mind. 
Love was lost to me until you. 

Until you, I had no idea what love was. 
Until you, I was selfish and self-centered. 
Until you, love was just an idea. 
Until you, I was selfish and self-centered. 
Until you, love was just a word. 

Love was a common work, But the impact of such love.
I had not known until you. 
You came into my world, 
You knew my voice. 
My heart filled with joy. 

Until you, I had no idea what love was. 
Until you, I was selfish and self-centered. 
Until you, love was just an idea. 
Until you, I was selfish and self-centered. 
Until you, love was just a word. 

You held my finger, 
And I knew love was. 

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Never Change Your Heart

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You give to others, but it is not enough.
They want more and more until you have nothing to give. 
When you have nothing to give, they leave.
They leave in search of another that can give more.

This is not your fault, 
Your act of kindness was from your heart. 
Your love does not go unnoticed. 

You may feel foolish for helping,
but never feel foolish for doing the right thing. 
For those who take advantage of you, have to live with themselves.
Never change who you are.

Never change your heart.
It is the others who need to change who they are. 

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Changes

I see the changes in you. 
It saddens me but you won’t know or care.
Do you feel lost? Do you want to scream? 
Do you see and feel the changes in yourself?

I know we don’t talk anymore;  
I know you don’t want me around. 
But then I see the changes in you and they worry me.

I pray for you, but you will never know.  
I pray that you see the light again.
I pray that you surround yourself with goodness.

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Too Young

Failure, disappointment and regret.
There is an ache in my heart each time we lose another.
For all that are lost, this despair won’t dissolve.

How could we have done more?
What could I have done?
Why do so many lives end this way? 

The pain and sickening feeling each time I get the news.
Another one lost, and still another. 
What can be done, when so many are lost.

What can we do to stop this?
Too young to be a statistic. 

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Worrying and Waiting

My fingers and feet move constantly as I sit waiting.
I pace back and forth and try not to think of what lies ahead of me. 

When will this be over?
This fear I have inside.
When will I know?
And stop the constant waiting that is eating away my soul. 

I can’t sit still. I have to keep moving. 
Keeping busy, to keep my mind filled.
The dishes, the laundry, vacuuming, anything I can.

My thoughts race to what will happen and I plan for the worst.
I play out scenarios and worry myself even more. 

I find myself constantly checking, every moment I have. 
Still nothing and my heart beats even faster than before. 
How can it take so long? 

I look for results.
I check over and over again.
I keep looking for answers,
My heart can’t handle the unknown.

I pace back and forth.
Fidget in my seat.
Tap my feet and twiddle my thumbs,
But nothing helps me to realize my stress.

The waiting and not knowing.
The waiting and unknown are eating away at me. 
Worrying brings nothing but despair. 

 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life? Matthew 6:27.

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FRIENDSHIPS


Am I a difficult person to be friends with?
Am I too awkward?
Am I too anxious?
Do I forget to hold my tongue?
What is it?

I don’t have many friends.
I don’t know what’s wrong with me.

People are friends with me,
until they find someone better.
I am never good enough. 
I am never the one they want to keep.

I hold on to friends too long.
Sometimes they say they want someone to hold on to them,
But when it comes to me, they let me go. 

Sometimes you have to be the one who let’s go.
It’s disheartening but you need to let go 

It is lonely at times, because you miss how things were.
Are you really missing it or are you missing what you thought you had?
When in reality it was all a lie.

I will be there for those who need me to be.
I will be there when you call me.
If you want me to go, tell me. 
And I will be gone but if you need me once more,
Life is too short to be angry. 

Cherish the friends you have.
If some want to leave, let them.
Life is too short to be angry.

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In Silence

In silence I wait, wondering when the time will be when you come to me.
In silence, I wait, wondering what you are doing and if you are okay.

I am silent most of the time. I do not say your name, or speak of you at all.
I am silently waiting for that moment, the breakthrough when you come to me.
I am silently waiting and hoping that I am missed.

In silence, I sit thinking of you and praying that you are okay.
In silence, I wonder what could have been done.
In silence, I wonder if being silent is best.

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No Control

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The leaves change colors, and we must accept it.
The air turns cooler, and we can do nothing to stop it.
The days grow shorter and the nights longer. 
And still we have no control.

Things change and we must accept it.
Our friendships change, and we can do nothing to stop it.
The days grow shorter and the nights longer.
And still we have no control.

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