It breaks my heart that you were not honest. It breaks my heart that you hid it from me. It breaks my heart because I thought. I thought we were close. I thought we were good. I thought I had lifelong friend in you. I thought, but I should have known.
When your mind is cloudy, When your head wants to rest, And all you can do is worry, About all the things that are a mess. The work you need to do. The places you need to go. But your mind needs to rest. Your head needs a pillow And you need to stop. Slow down, close your eyes. Take a breath, it’s okay to stop. Slow down, close your eyes. Take a breath, it’s okay to stop. Feeling guilty When I rest my head. When I need more sleep. When I can’t go on, I need to rest. Slow down, close your eyes. Take a breath, it’s okay to stop.
It feels like a kick in the gut. A feeling of failure. A feeling of defeat Dejected and cast away. What more could I do? I tried everything I could think of. Each and every day. Still nothing works. It feels like being trapped. Can’t breathe, can’t move. But still, you do all you can. But nothing will work. An ache in my heart. My entire body falls to pieces. Left on the ground as if none of it really mattered.
I was not alone when my mother was sick. I was not alone when she died. I was not alone when my father died. I have never been alone. I was not alone when I cried for them. I was not alone when I missed them I was not alone when I needed them. I have never been alone. I was not alone at any point in my life. I was not alone when my baby died, before I could hold them. I was not alone when I wept for them. I have never been alone. I was not alone when I finally became a mother. I was not alone when I stayed up with the crying baby. I was not alone when I had to go back to work. I have never been alone. We have never been alone, a day in our lives. Lord Jesus comfort us, even when we don’t know you are there.
I don't know how I feel about it. I don’t know what to say. I don’t know what to do. Is this really what you want? Why is it affecting me so much? Why am I questioning things so much? Why does this bother me so much? Why am I waiting for the floor to come out from under me? Why?
Open Door The door’s always open. Some will enter, Others will leave, But it’s always open. It’s your choice, to enter or not, But I’m always here.
Here is our second Wednesday Poetry Prompt!
Write a Poem About Healing
Forgive me Maybe I am to blame, Maybe it was me this time. We think about forgiveness and giving it But how to do forgive yourself? How to do you heal and seek guidance From the one you have wronged How do you both come to terms and move on. Move on to bigger and better. Move on to things that matter. And create once again How do we do this?
This Tuesday February 7th until Saturday February 11th!
This is a collection of poems, thoughts, short stories, and art. I hope you enjoy them.
Many of my poems might be dark and depressing, but writing is how I cope with things life throws at us. When I’m frustrated, hurt, and sad, I write. It helps me cope with my feelings though not every poem will fit this description, most of them will.
I write on a slew of subjects; motherhood, family, miscarriage, children, raising children and many more. Sometimes moms get into a competition of who’s the better mother or who has the best kids, whose job is hard, and that mindset helps no one. I promise to be as real as I can, hoping the things that have challenged me can help someone else.
Ramblings contains poems from the following books:
Ramblings of the Mind
Ramblings of the Soul
Ramblings of the Heart
Ramblings of the Spirit
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Each Wednesday in my Facebook writing group, we do Poetry Prompts. I wanted to start sharing them here as well.
The prompt for this Wednesday: Write a Poem About Jealously.
Jealousy It boils up in me. Ready to explode My heart races and These thoughts come to me Making me questions it all. Jealousy, it's a raging fire. Jealousy, tearing my heart out. Jealousy, and I can’t see Jealousy, Jealousy I’m ready to explode, Ready to infinite The fire building in me. I can’t think of anything It doesn't make sense This feeling inside of me Making me question, Making me fear. Jealousy, it's a raging fire. Jealousy, tearing my heart out. Jealousy, and I can’t see Jealousy, Jealousy
Open Door The door’s always open. Some will enter, Others will leave, But it’s always open. It’s your choice, to enter or not, But I’m always here.
