The party's started, and the music's loud,
But I'm not really here, I'm just a crowd.
The laughter's ringing, and the drinks are flowing,
But I'm the one who's left, the one who's going.
I'm not sure why I'm here, or why I came,
I guess I thought I'd fit in, but I don't seem the same.
I'm different, I'm strange, I'm not like them,
I'm the one who's left out, the one who's not invited in.
I watch them all, they're laughing, they're talking,
They're having fun, and I'm just sitting here, watching.
I feel like an outsider, like I don't belong,
I'm the one who's left out, the one who's all alone.
I want to join in, I want to be like them,
But I know I can't, I'm not like them, I'm different.
I'm the one who's left out, the one who's not invited in.
So, I'll just sit here, and I'll watch them all,
And I'll try to smile, and I'll try to pretend,
That I'm not the one who's left out,
That I'm not the one who's all alone.
I once had a friend,
Whose love was like a weed.
It grew and grew,
And choked the life out of me.
I tried to pull it out,
But it was too strong.
It wrapped its roots around my heart,
And I couldn't breathe.
I finally had to give up,
And walk away.
It was the hardest thing I've ever done,
But it was the only way to survive.
I'm still healing,
But I'm starting to feel like myself again.
I'm learning to love myself,
And I'm finding new friends who love me for who I am.
I'm not saying it's easy,
To walk away from a toxic friend.
But it's worth it,
To save yourself.
You deserve to be happy,
And you deserve to be surrounded by people who love you.
So don't be afraid to let go,
Of the people who are holding you back.
You're worth it.
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Friends whom I have loved, though that time has gone.
Friends whom I still love, but they have turned cold.
I know not why they turned away,
Nor what has made them cold.
They used to smile and speak to me,
And now they pass me by.
I long to ask them why they frown,
But dare not ask them why.
I know not what I've done to them,
Nor what has made them grieve.
I only know that I am sad,
And they are cold and leave.
I wish they'd come and talk to me,
To bury whatever this pain is.
I'd do anything to please them,
And make them friends again.
I'd give them all I have to give,
If only they would come.
I'd give them my heart and soul,
If only they would love me as they used to do.
For so long I waited, now my heart is cold as well.
Though I still love, and pray for my parted friends,
I must know when the time has come, to be them far well, and move on.
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Seasons go by, leaves change, they wither and die.
Then flowers bloom, they grow standing tall and then die.
Death is all around us.
It seems strange for life to go on without you.
To make decisions, to be happy or sad.
To live life when death is all around us.
So much death, and yet we are expected to pick up and carry on.
When you are gone.
Seasons go by, leaves change, they wither and die.
Then flowers bloom, they grow standing tall and then die.
Death is all around us.
The years go by, and more death comes.
The older we get the more death comes for us and our loved ones.
And still we are expected to pick up and carry on.
When you are gone.
Seasons go by, leaves change, they wither and die.
Then flowers bloom, they grow standing tall and then die.
Death is all around us.
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The wind pushed the sand into my face.
It stings as it hits like tiny bites across my flesh
I can barely see the endless mounds of sand in front of me.
I close my eyes, sheltering me from the ongoing storm.
Nothing is there to stop the storm.
I push one foot in front of the other.
One hand blocking my face,
And the other reaches out, hoping someone is there to pull me along.
The winds pick up, they swirl around me.
No matter how hard I try, I can’t move forward.
I kneel and cover my head with my hands,
In a desperate attempt to keep the sand off of my face.
I kneel there helpless and alone.
Then a hand rests on my shoulder.
Someone kneels down behind me,
and shelters me from the storm.
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There is a disclaimer this poem. My daughter has been sick. I have a few close friends who know here that I spoke to. This is her issue and not something I want to talk about everywhere. So many people want to know what’s wrong, but if you don’t talk to me daily, or ever every week, I am sure not going to tell you personal things about my kid. There are some people I am close with, but I have not talked to, and that has nothing to do with you as a friend, it has to do with me. Please respect that and spot messaging me for information. It makes you sound like a gossip junkie instead of a concerned friend.
I don’t know you like that!
I don’t want to tell you everything!
Because I don’t know you like that.
I told those I feel comfortable with.
I shared my feelings, and they helped me
I don’t know you like that.
Just because you want the gossip.
To feel like you are in the know
Or to tell others, and gossip.
Not my issue.
I don’t know you like that.
So don’t ask me to tell you what’s wrong.
If I wanted to tell you, and I considered you a close friend
You would already know.
Today is your day!
You were not made for failure!
You were made to succeed,
Today is your day!
You were not made by mistake!
You were made to flourish!
Today is your day!
You will reach the stars!
Today is your day!
Anything is possible!
Today is your day!
You are destined for greatness!
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It breaks my heart that you were not honest.
It breaks my heart that you hid it from me.
It breaks my heart because I thought.
I thought we were close.
I thought we were good.
I thought I had lifelong friend in you.
I thought, but I should have known.
When your mind is cloudy,
When your head wants to rest,
And all you can do is worry,
About all the things that are a mess.
The work you need to do.
The places you need to go.
But your mind needs to rest.
Your head needs a pillow
And you need to stop.
Slow down, close your eyes.
Take a breath, it’s okay to stop.
Slow down, close your eyes.
Take a breath, it’s okay to stop.
Feeling guilty
When I rest my head.
When I need more sleep.
When I can’t go on, I need to rest.
Slow down, close your eyes.
Take a breath, it’s okay to stop.
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It feels like a kick in the gut.
A feeling of failure.
A feeling of defeat
Dejected and cast away.
What more could I do?
I tried everything I could think of.
Each and every day.
Still nothing works.
It feels like being trapped.
Can’t breathe, can’t move.
But still, you do all you can.
But nothing will work.
An ache in my heart.
My entire body falls to pieces.
Left on the ground as if none of it really mattered.
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