Covid-19

When Covid started, I was proactive. I made sure when everything was closed that my kids and I stayed inside and away from large groups. My brother and his wife had just had a baby. I wanted to visit, but I didn’t want to bring the virus with me. So I avoided visiting family and crowds of people the best I could. I even made my own disinfectant wipes as the stores were running out of them. I did everything I could. 

When I could get the vaccine, I got both shots and the booster. I made everyone in my house get vaccinated and still… still, everyone in my family tested positive. I couldn’t believe it! How could it be positive? 

I couldn’t believe how sick I got. Covid hit one of my hard and he needed breathing treatments. My son was so sick. People told me to isolate him when he was sick, but how could I do that to him? He was so sick and needed me. I can only imagine if we did not have the vaccines how sick we could have been. 

A special thank you to my friends and family who checked on me and my family during this time. It made me feel loved to have so many people checking on me. Thank you so much. 

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Out of the Grasp of a Loss

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Out of the Grasp of a Loss

Out of the grasp of a loss
There is hope. 
Out of the pain of loss.
There is hope.
Out of a broke trust
There is hope. 

To start a new, 
And live each day
With hope.

Build new friendships,
And forget about the ones you lost.
Nourish old friendships,
so they become anew.
Build people up, 
and show them you care. 

You will never be alone, 
But I know that is what you fear. 
You fear be left alone, cast aside as you have been before.
You fear not being good enough and losing once more. 

Build new friendships,
And forget about the ones you lost.
Nourish old friendships,
so they become anew.
Build people up, 
and show them you care. 
And you will never be alone. 

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When is it enough?

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When is it enough?

How long do you reach out to someone?
How long do you call someone a friend?
Do you continue to pray even when they don’t care about you?

When they tarnish your name,
When they won’t talk to you,
When they ignore you,
How long do you wait?

Do you still pray?
Is it wrong to move on and not care?
Isn’t it hard not to care?
Are you a horrible person if you move on?

Why do I feel guilty?
Shouldn’t you pray for your enemies and friends alike?
Shouldn’t you be the better person?
When is it enough?
When will it ever be enough?

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The Fear

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The Fear

 The fear of this reality.
The fear of life and it’s end.  
The fear it builds in us, and we don’t even realize it.
The fear we have, so we don’t live our lives. 

The fear we have that sits with us every day.
The fear that keeps us in doors.
The fear that keeps me from the hug.

The fear that we are not in control.
The fear no matter what we do, grabs us and binds us to it. 
The fear that all I do may not be enough.
The realization that it will never be enough.

I lift my fears to you my Lord. 
I lift them to you, please take them.
For I am not in control.

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Life is Too Short

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Life is too Short

Don’t hold grudges. Don’t waste time.
Life is too short and unpredictable. 
Don’t hold grudges. Don’t waste time.

Life is too short, to hold on to childish things. 
Love like it is your last day.
Love and you will never be wrong. 
Don’t worry about trivial things. 

Don’t worry about who should say sorry.
Don’t worry, just love.

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Time

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I watch the hours tick by,  
Waiting to hear from you.  
Your soothing voice,  
Comforts my soul.  

The hours feel like an eternity,  
Without you here. Endless it seems.  

Time drags on as I wait to hear from you.  
Now you are here, and time speeds up.  

Once you leave, and I will go back to waiting,  
Time stands still as I wish you were here.  

Longing to feel your warm embrace.  

Longing to hear your voice and share your sweet smile.  
The houses once again tick by slowly till we meet again.  

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You Never Think of Me

Everyone leaves. 
They find someone better and then they leave.  
Why do I worry so much? 
Why do I care what you do? 
Do you think I will be there to help you when it all falls apart? 

Is this my job to pick up the pieces when you fall? 
You put your faith in others but then want me to have faith in you? 
You didn’t think of me and impulsively act. 
You push me aside and only think of yourself.  
You never think of me. You never think! 

Everyone leaves. 
They find someone better and then they leave.  
Why do I worry so much? 
Why do I care what you do? 
Do you think I will be there to help you when it all falls apart? 

How can I have faith in someone like you?  
Will I be alone my entire life and think of myself? 
You never think of me! 

Everyone leaves. 
They find someone better and then they leave.  
Why do I worry so much? 
Why do I care what you do? 
Do you think I will be there to help you when it all falls apart? 

How can I have faith in someone like you? 
Will I be alone my entire life? 
Do I forgive and move on? 

Everyone leaves. 
They find someone better and then they leave.  
Why do I worry so much? 
Why do I care what you do? 
Do you think I will be there to help you when it all falls apart? 

Will you come running back to me? 
Asking for another chance? Asking for love and faith 
For you just to leave again. 
Why should I care what you do and how you do it? 
Why does this still matter to me? Why do you matter? 
Everyone leaves. 

They find someone better and then they leave.  
Why do I worry so much? 
Why do I care what you do? 
Do you think I will be there to help you when it all falls apart? 
My heart can only take so much. 
Hurt so many times, 
How do I heal from it? 

Everyone leaves. 
They find someone better and then they leave.  
Why do I worry so much? 
Why do I care what you do? 
Do you think I will be there to help you when it all falls apart? 

Will everyone leave? 
Do I even bother starting again? 
Don’t get to be happy? 

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You Are Worthy

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How do I tell, you are worthy? 
You are fearfully and wonderfully made.  
Your works are worthy.

You are worthy. 
How do I tell you; you are worthy? 
You are fearfully and wonderfully made. 
You are worthy! God knows you are worthy. 

You can do anything to take away  
From the love God has for you.  
You are worthy; He knows you're worthy. 

God says you are worthy, you are worthy. 
The Lord of light created you, and you are worthy, 
Worthy, Worthy 

Let the light of your face shine on the world. 
Because you are worthy. Worthy 

Show the world the love God has for you 
And they will see you are worthy,  
They will see that they are worthy 

Show them the love God has for them 
They will see they are worthy,  
You are worthy.  

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Look in the Mirror

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Look in the mirror  
And see why no one is talking to you.  
Look in the mirror   
And see you are all alone.  
Look in the mirror  
And see the villain you are.  

There you are waiting for the fallout.  
Sitting at home waiting for the drama to commence.  

Asking if people are crying, hurting or talking about you?  
Again, and again the same old story,  
But no one cares.  

Look in the mirror  
And see why no one is talking to you.  
Look in the mirror   
And see you are all alone.  
Look in the mirror  
And see the villain you are.  

No one cares because you've done it so many times.  

I wish you well,  
But the pain you have caused others  
Is too much to bear.  

You push us away,  
but want us to wallow in self-pity.  
Pushing us aside,  
So many times, I don't care!  
Look in the mirror  
And see why no one is talking to you.  
Look in the mirror   
And see you are all alone.  
Look in the mirror  
And see the villain you are.  

I don't care what you think anymore!  
We are not friends, never were.  
You made people cry and question themselves!  

That is not what friendship is about.  
Sitting at home wondering where we are and who we are talking to!  
But guess what?  
We’re not talking about you.  

You did it so many times,   
That is, don't phase us anymore.  
What I used to cry over;   
The tears have all dried up.  

Look in the mirror  
And see why no one is talking to you.  
Look in the mirror   
And see you are all alone.  
Look in the mirror  
And see the villain you are.  

No more compassion,  
For someone like you.  

You want to be gone from our lives,  
Then be gone for those are your choices not ours.  

You are a coward, and you don't care what you do to others.  
No one needs a friend like that in their life. 
 
Look in the mirror  
And see why no one is talking to you.  
Look in the mirror   
And see you are all alone.  
Look in the mirror  
And see the villain you are.  

You did this to yourself,  
No one did this to you.  
Be the one with no friends.  
For this is the last time,  
I waste a breath on you.  

Look in the mirror  
And see why no one is talking to you.  
Look in the mirror   
And see you are all alone.  
Look in the mirror  
And see the villain you are.  

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