How do you know how important you are?
Do I think more of you than you think of me?
I am hopeless and alone, always and forever.
As much as I help, it’s never enough.
As much as I love, I hurt.
I am not important and never have been.
To those I care about, they care little for me.
I am hopeless and alone, always and forever.
I am the one who gets tossed aside, forgotten each time.
A new thing comes along.
What do you want from a good friend?
What do you expect from a good friend?
A friend should always have your back.
A friend should stand by you and support you.
However, a good friend will support you,
They will also tell you when you are wrong.
They call you out and give you advice,
Even if it’s not what you want to hear.
Good friends should be treasured.
Good friends are hard to find.
Don’t be angry with them for telling you the truth.
Be thankful for they are the only ones who truly care.
Support I give and rarely receive.
How is it the ones closest to you,
Are the ones who don’t support you?
Strangers give you praise and those you love
Wonder why they should.
Why can’t we praise people and support those we love?
Are we only there to support, when times are rough?
Why are those in your corner, not truly there for you?
When they have so much to give when your cards are down,
But nothing when you achieve your goals.
I thought they were my friends.
I thought I was important.
I thought they would support me,
But alas, I was wrong.
I cherished the memories,
I cherished our talks,
I cherished our friendship,
But alas, I was wrong to cherish these things.
In the end, it never mattered.
In the end, it is all gone.
In the end, I am alone.
A promise is something sweet,
A caring gesture of friendship and love.
Sincere thoughts and a heartfelt vow,
A pledge of honor and faith.
When promises brake and friendships shattered,
You blackened your heart with lies.
How far do you go to recapture that trust?
What will you do to regain that love?
The vow and the faith you once had,
Why do you keep your promise when others do not?
Should you mend something that’s broken?
How do you fix the friendship all in ruins,
A trust that is a dilapidated mess?
How far will you go to keep a promise of a friendship long gone?
The darkness pours over my soul
As endless waves rush in.
The rising of the tide pulls me in further.
Pulling my heart and filling it with dread.
I found myself caught in the tide, while my body struggles to be free.
The darkness shrouds my existence, and soon I am gasping for air.
The dark waters pulling me down, filling my lungs with regret and despair.
I reach out trying to break the surface, but the darkness is always there.
Pulling me back, pulling me down to the depths, I plummet.
The pressure keeps me down, night after night, day after day,
I can’t see the light, the darkness is all I know.
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Do my feelings not matter to you?
Do you think you can do what you want?
Screw me, because I don’t matter!
Throw my feelings in the trash and stomp all over them!
Did you even think to talk to me?
Did you think I wouldn’t care?
Did you even think of me?
I know you didn’t think of me!
I know no one does!
It’s better to not expect anything from anyone!
They always disappoint!
I expect too much from people and I am the one who gets hurt.
Did you even think to talk to me?
Did you think I wouldn’t care?
Did you even think of me?
Throw my feelings in the trash and stomp all over them!
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Am I your friend?
Do you really care about me the way I care about you?
We use the terms best friends of is that just me?
But is that truly what I am to you?
Do I think more of you than you think of me?
When my usefulness is gone, will you also leave?
Why do these questions haunt me so?
I worry about the future, like an endless sea of doubt.
Doubting myself and others, will I ever be happy.
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A monster rises up in my soul.
It grows and screams as it infects my heart.
Like a virus, it spreads.
It corrupts as it disseminates.
Be happy for them a small meal voice whispers to me.
The monster shrieks!
Where were they when it was your turn?
Where were their praises and support?
Why did they pick her and not you?
How can they support him and not you?
Be happy for your friend.
Dont sour their victory with frets of your own.
The monster bellows from within.
Its voice rattles my bones.
I try to hide it but it’s the monster wails on.
I cover my ears blocking it out.
The small timid voice I hear calling out to me.
Be happy for your friend
Show them support
Do not let this monstrous nature eat away at your soul.
It will leave you in bleak darkness with a hole in your heart.
Fight this creature and be whole.
I sit with my hands over my ears fighting this monster from within.
