Breaks My Heart

It breaks my heart that you were not honest.
It breaks my heart that you hid it from me.
It breaks my heart because I thought.

I thought we were close.
I thought we were good.
I thought I had lifelong friend in you.
I thought, but I should have known.

I Don’t Know How to Feel

I don't know how I feel about it.
I don’t know what to say.
I don’t know what to do.

Is this really what you want?

Why is it affecting me so much?
Why am I questioning things so much?
Why does this bother me so much?


Why am I waiting for the floor to come out from under me?
Why?


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Open Door

Open Door
The door’s always open.
Some will enter,
Others will leave,
But it’s always open.

It’s your choice, 
to enter or not,
But I’m always here. 

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Did You Hear My Words?

You didn’t say anything.
Did you hear my words?
Do you know?

Did you know that I prayed for you every day?
Did you know you were never far from my thoughts?
My heart ached for I knew you were in pain.

You stopped talking to me.
But I didn’t know.
If you could talk or
Was it just me?

Did I do something wrong?
Did you hear my words, or
Was I a bother to you?

You didn’t say anything.
But I kept praying
And now I am left with wonder.

And now you are gone.
And I will never know.
If you heard my words. 

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When You Hold On

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A long time ago someone told me that people give up on them easily.
And I reassured them that I do not give up on people.

People tend to give up on me,
But I would be someone’s friend until the end.
Until they are the ones pushing me out and moving on without me.

When you hold onto friends, 
Sometimes holding on is a good thing. 
Sometimes it makes your bond stronger.
Sometimes they grow tired of you
Sometimes they hate you for it
Sometimes, however, they love that you have not forgotten them.

So, what is the answer?
Do you hold on or let go?



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Forgive Me

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Forgive me
Maybe I am to blame,
Maybe it was me this time. 

We think about forgiveness and giving it
But how to do forgive yourself?
How to do you heal and seek guidance
From the one you have wronged
How do you both come to terms and move on

Move on to bigger and better.
Move on to things that matter.
And create once again
How do we do this?


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I do not Understand Hate.

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I do not Understand Hate.
I lost control and I don't know what to do.
Sometimes I feel like my mind is stuck in the past.
I can’t stop thinking about things that happened,
And I know I need to move on but it’s hard. 

Don’t hold grudges.
I know I go out of my way to show people that I 
Don’t hold grudges. 

What do you do when someone
 has hardened their heart to you?
Not much you can do
I still won't hold a grudge
Just pray for them

If they came to me for help,
I would help
But there is a point when you can forgive,
 but not let people go back in the way you did in the past. 

Is it selfish to think someone will come back to you
Realizing that they miss you or need you?
Why was i so easy to write off?
The hatred I do not understand. 



Gone

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Gone
 
We used to talk
We used to confide
In each other 
But now that is gone.

Something we loved is gone
Broke and gone
Can we still call each other friends?
Will you still be there for me,
When our craft is gone, can we still be kind?

But you made your mind up.
And now it's over!
Your choice, not mine! 
It's time for me to go.

What to do?

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What to do?
Have you ever wanted to talk to someone who you are mad at?
Have you ever waited a while and found out you are not as mad as you were before?
Then have you ever thought, maybe they should talk to me first.
Then have you ever thought, maybe I am better off without this person in my life?

What does forgiveness entail?
Do I have to tell them I forgive them?
Do I have to explain why I was upset?
Do I have to beg the person, even though I think I was the one in the right?

Why can’t I let things just be?
Why can’t I let things rest?
Why can’t this be easy?
Why can’t I be normal?

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Everyone Need That One Friend

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Everyone needs that one friend.
Who will support you and lift you up.
Who will never tear you down. 

Everyone needs that one friend.
Who will always have your back.
Who will never turn on you.

Everyone needs that one friend,
Who will listen to your success.
And belittle you.

Everyone needs that one friend.
Who defends you just because.
And who will never speak ill of you.

Everyone needs that one friend. 
Are you that one friend to someone?
Do you need that one friend?

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