What to do? Have you ever wanted to talk to someone who you are mad at? Have you ever waited a while and found out you are not as mad as you were before? Then have you ever thought, maybe they should talk to me first. Then have you ever thought, maybe I am better off without this person in my life?
What does forgiveness entail? Do I have to tell them I forgive them? Do I have to explain why I was upset? Do I have to beg the person, even though I think I was the one in the right?
Why can’t I let things just be? Why can’t I let things rest? Why can’t this be easy? Why can’t I be normal?
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Everyone needs that one friend.
Who will support you and lift you up.
Who will never tear you down.
Everyone needs that one friend.
Who will always have your back.
Who will never turn on you.
Everyone needs that one friend,
Who will listen to your success.
And belittle you.
Everyone needs that one friend.
Who defends you just because.
And who will never speak ill of you.
Everyone needs that one friend.
Are you that one friend to someone?
Do you need that one friend?
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I am a star.
You don’t always see me,
But know I am there.
I am a star.
Praying and watching over you.
I am a star.
Always here, no matter what.
I am a star.
No matter what,
No matter when,
No matter what has happened in the past,
I am a star, and I am always here.
I am a star.
You don’t always see me,
But know I am there.
I am here always.
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I miss you, my friend.
I miss what I thought we were.
I miss how we talked
I miss how we laughed
I miss how we helped each other.
Was it all a lie?
Did you just put up with me?
Did you ever like me?
Or was I just a means to an end?
How can I find others now,
When all you were was a lie?
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Covered in mud and decaying
You can’t see who they truly are
They hid in the bushes
You can’t see who they truly are
Their face they hide
You can’t see who they truly are
A mask of deception, done their face
You don’t know their true intentions
You think you know them
The facade they show you,
You think you know them
The face they want you to see,
You think you know them
It is only what they want you to see
For a long time, I tried to hold onto friends. I didn’t have many friends but the ones i had I wanted to hold on to. I thought it was a good thing. I always wanted someone to hold onto me, but as i have learned sometimes it’s best to let go. It is a difficult thing for me to let go. I still care, pray and think about these friends, but holding on sometimes leads them to pushing you further and further away. It is a lesson I am still learning and each time it happens, I have to remind myself of it again. This happens with family, as well as friends. Sometimes you must let go of your own sanity. Still, it is difficult for me to let go. I know that if any of these people came to me for help, I would help them. Would I let them back into my life, I really don’t know. It might not be a good idea for me to let them back in, but I don’t always do what is best for me. I forgive easily which is not a bad thing but forgiving and forgetting over and over again only leads to hurt later.
Sometimes
Sometimes you need to know.
When the time has passed.
Sometimes you need to know.
When the friendship is over.
Friends pass over time.
Friends come and go.
That does not mean they do not care
Cherish the times you had with them
Sometimes you need to let go.
Let go and set them free.
Sometimes you need to know.
When the time has passed.
Sometimes you need to know.
When the friendship is over.
Do not hold them back,
Do not make them feel bad
Sometimes it is better to just wish them well
And move on.
When they move on from you,
Do not fret, do not get angry
Wish them well and move on.
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I wrote this several years ago, but it still rings true today. If I could give you nothing but my friendship, who would be my friend? Circumstances have changed since I wrote this, but the bottom line is still the same.
If all you offered was friendship, who could you still call your friend? When I was little, my mother told me if you could count on your hand five good friends you are a wealthy person. I have this need to want everyone to like me. I kept giving things to others to make them happy, but never thinking of myself. My own self-worth was based on how many friends I had, but were they truly my friends?
So, then I ask you, what does it mean to be a friend? If the only thing I offered is my friendship, who will still be your friend?
I realized this over this past week. You see, my friends and I ran a roleplay group on Facebook. For those of you who don’t know, a roleplay group is when you write as a particular character. You create plots with your friends and think as your character thinks. I loved it. It helped me become a better writer and helped me work out different ideas for stories. It’s hard to keep a fake life up when your real life is too busy. So, after 3 years, we have closed the doors to this group. Being an admin, writing plots for people, and regulating the group was becoming a burden when it used to be for fun.
Each one of us was afraid to speak about it. We thought we would let the other admins down if we confessed this. Having a full-time job, three kids, and keeping the group was overwhelming. My kids are in sports, scouts and still need help with their homework. Others on the admin team were busy with school and work and were thinking of leaving. The team moved on and created something smaller. Something that will be easier to manage.
We had the group for 3 years. Do you still consider me a friend when I do not have a group to offer you? When friendship is all, I can offer you, will you still be my friend?
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I am strong.
I will prevail.
I am powerful.
My words can move mountains.
My words can tear people down.
I chose to lift them up.
I am strong.
I am loved.
I am beautiful.
My words can move mountains.
My words can tear people down.
I chose to lift them up.
Check out Nancy’s latest book: Ramblings of a Chaotic Mind and The Shadow Realm Chronicles: Maeve This is a collection of poems, thoughts, short stories, and art. I hope you enjoy them.
I Lost a Friend Today
I lost a friend today.
I should feel sad,
But I don’t.
I lost a friend today.
I should be sad,
But I am glad.
Words were exchanged,
And I held my own.
Words were exchanged,
And I held my own.
No matter who you are,
There is a time and a place.
Friends should support others.
Those closest to you should support you.
When they don’t it is time to remove them from your life.
Everyone in your boat may not be rowing for you, but against you.
As your success grows, their loyalty fades.
They would rather push you down, than see you succeed.
So today I lost a friend,
And I am happy!
But I wish it were easier to make and keep friends.
Maybe there is something wrong with me.
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