Loser

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I am the one that everyone forgets.

They say they don’t, but they do.

They say we missed you

But they don’t talk to me.

As soon as I come in, everything stops.

Am I a killjoy?

Do they just say they miss me because that’s what they are supposed to say?

How do you know someone is genuine? 

Because I just feel completely useless and forgotten.

And if I didn’t talk to them for weeks on end, it won’t matter.

I’m an outsider watching them.

I’m a loser sitting by myself.

And I don’t know what to do.

If You Were Here…

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If You Were Here…

I just need to talk to someone.

There is no place safe to talk.

Who won’t judge and won’t be hurt by what I say.

I know if you were here, I could talk to you.

I know I would be talking to you now,

And so many other times before.

If you were here.

I need someone to talk to,

A safe place where there is no blame.

A place where I can be honest and 

A place where you won’t be hurt.

A place where I can say whatever I need,

And you will just listen

And no one will be hurt.

I need you, your voice, and your wisdom. 

If you were here.

Throw my feelings in the trash and stomp all over them!

 

 

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Do my feelings not matter to you?

Do you think you can do what you want?

Screw me, because I don’t matter!

Throw my feelings in the trash and stomp all over them!

 

Did you even think to talk to me?

Did you think I wouldn’t care?

Did you even think of me?

 

I know you didn’t think of me!

I know no one does!

 

It’s better to not expect anything from anyone!

They always disappoint!

I expect too much from people and I am the one who gets hurt.

 

Did you even think to talk to me?

Did you think I wouldn’t care?

Did you even think of me?

 

Throw my feelings in the trash and stomp all over them!

Am I Your Friend

friend

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Am I your friend?

Do you really care about me the way I care about you?

We use the terms best friends of is that just me?

But is that truly what I am to you?

 

Do I think more of you than you think of me?

When my usefulness is gone, will you also leave?

Why do these questions haunt me so?

 

I worry about the future, like an endless sea of doubt. 

Doubting myself and others, will I ever be happy.

New Book

The Adventures of

The Adventures of Zelda and Foxy

The Kindle and print versions are live!!!!!!

This is a children’s book, written and illustrated by me. I hope you enjoy it!
My name is Zelda, and this is Foxy Roxy. He is my pet fox. I didn’t always have Foxy. Let me tell you how Foxy Roxy came into my life.

 

 

 

 

Happy 11th Birthday Baby

why

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The pit in my stomach never goes away.

I miss you, but I know you are in a better place.

As your birthday comes, each year I cry.

No matter what, I miss you.

No matter how many years go by, you will always be my baby.

Artwork

I started drawing for a children’s book for my daughter Zelda.   Someone suggested I put them on Deviant art. Please follow me if you have Deviant art and check out the illustrations! The book is already written, but the illustrations are taking longer.  Though I never really drew this way before.

 

Deviant Art

 

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zelda and foxy

Free Book

 

 

FREE BOOK! FROM NOW UNTIL JANUARY 1!

Free Kindle download. You don’t have to actually have a kindle to download. You can use the kindle app to get the book.

Please Download, read and tell me what you think!

This is a collection of poems, thoughts, short stories, and art. I hope you enjoy them. Many of my poems might be dark and depressing, but writing is how I cope with things life throws at us. When I’m frustrated, hurt, and sad, I write. It helps me cope with my feeling though not every poem will fit this description most of them will.

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42 Years Old

 

Today is my birthday. I am 42 years old. 42 is an odd age for me. My mother died when she was 42. So remember tomorrow is not a guarantee. Live life as if it’s your last day. God said the greatest commandment is love. Don’t forget that!