The darkness pours over my soul

The darkness pours over my soul

The darkness pours over my soul

As endless waves rush in.

The rising of the tide pulls me in further. 

Pulling my heart and filling it with dread. 

I found myself caught in the tide, while my body struggles to be free.

The darkness shrouds my existence, and soon I am gasping for air. 

The dark waters pulling me down, filling my lungs with regret and despair.

I reach out trying to break the surface, but the darkness is always there. 

Pulling me back, pulling me down to the depths, I plummet. 

The pressure keeps me down, night after night, day after day,

I can’t see the light, the darkness is all I know.

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Throw my feelings in the trash and stomp all over them!

 

 

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Do my feelings not matter to you?

Do you think you can do what you want?

Screw me, because I don’t matter!

Throw my feelings in the trash and stomp all over them!

 

Did you even think to talk to me?

Did you think I wouldn’t care?

Did you even think of me?

 

I know you didn’t think of me!

I know no one does!

 

It’s better to not expect anything from anyone!

They always disappoint!

I expect too much from people and I am the one who gets hurt.

 

Did you even think to talk to me?

Did you think I wouldn’t care?

Did you even think of me?

 

Throw my feelings in the trash and stomp all over them!

Am I Your Friend

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Am I your friend?

Do you really care about me the way I care about you?

We use the terms best friends of is that just me?

But is that truly what I am to you?

 

Do I think more of you than you think of me?

When my usefulness is gone, will you also leave?

Why do these questions haunt me so?

 

I worry about the future, like an endless sea of doubt. 

Doubting myself and others, will I ever be happy.

Always Alone

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New Book

The Adventures of

The Adventures of Zelda and Foxy

The Kindle and print versions are live!!!!!!

This is a children’s book, written and illustrated by me. I hope you enjoy it!
My name is Zelda, and this is Foxy Roxy. He is my pet fox. I didn’t always have Foxy. Let me tell you how Foxy Roxy came into my life.

 

 

 

 

Happy 11th Birthday Baby

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The pit in my stomach never goes away.

I miss you, but I know you are in a better place.

As your birthday comes, each year I cry.

No matter what, I miss you.

No matter how many years go by, you will always be my baby.

Artwork

I started drawing for a children’s book for my daughter Zelda.   Someone suggested I put them on Deviant art. Please follow me if you have Deviant art and check out the illustrations! The book is already written, but the illustrations are taking longer.  Though I never really drew this way before.

 

Deviant Art

 

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The Shadow Realm Chronicles: Maeve (COMING SOON)

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The Shadow Realm Chronicles: Maeve

COMING SOON!

 

The Great War

 

Many years ago, darkness tore apart the worlds. They called it the Great War, for it was massive and involved all the realms of all the worlds save one. Enemies on either side grew their armies for battle with heavy casualties.  New allies formed out of this bloodshed while old ones crumbled.

The world of the Faye changed forever as their king descended into madness. His name was Julian. He once was a loving ruler, but those times were long gone. The pages written of him now are full of rage, blood, and hatred. Hatred for his children who grew to love others and revolt against him and his rule.  Hatred for his wife, who fled with his children and hatred for all the realms that were not under his rule. Julian needed his children because they were powerful. Each one controlling one of the four elements: wind, water, earth, and fire. Even though his children hate what he has become, they remember the good in him and are perhaps the only ones besides their mother who does.

Marius, the leader of the vampires and Jonathan, the ruler of the Shadow Realm, fought alongside Julian, but they did not trust him. Each of these three men were scheming against each other as they all wanted to come out the victor.

Jonathan had many plans and plots forming in his head, but they all revolved around Maeve. Maeve was a fairy, but she lived in a quiet world. The one world that was protected from the Great War. Jonathan didn’t care what Julian or Marius did as long as it didn’t interfere with his plan but interfere is what they do best. Jonathan had great plans for Maeve and her family, but he knew little of her connections to Julian’s family.

The Great War might be over, but another one looms in the distance, and it all begins with a lonely mother named Maeve.

 

 

 

 

Maeve is the first book in a series. I am currently writing the 4th book! I can’t wait! I am so excited!