My soul sings for you. Each day the love grows. More than I know it could ever grow. How could one person love someone as much as I love you? You have more patience and grace than I. Each day I see your love and it moves my soul. My heart warms and I wonder how I ever became so blessed to have you in my life.
We are the ones you blame.
No matter what the reason.
It comes down on us.
Do you think we will always be here?
That you can blame us and nothing will happen!
Is it because we are quiet?
Does that mean you can push us around?
I may not be outspoken,
but when I faintly speak I get bombarded.
Was I wrong to speak my mind?
Or do you think I should stay quiet
and let you continue to blame me?
You woke the sleeping dragon,
Now get ready for the fire.
“Coaching seems to be the right term to use for this supportive work with teachers, especially if we think about the definition of a coach as an individual who provides guidance and feedback that enables someone else to become more proficient,” Bean and Goatley (2021). Reading Specialists are often asked to coach teachers and other professionals. There are two schools of thought in the realm of Literacy Coaching as presented by Bean and Goatley (2021) and Rodgers & Rodgers, (2007). Bean and Goatley (2021), identifies Interactive Framework for Instruction Coaching whereas Rodgers & Rodgers, (2007) discuss Guiding Inquiry. How do these two approaches compare to each other? In this paper, I will discuss if these two approaches affect my own Teacher Leadership Project.
Bean and Goatley (2021) identify Interactive Framework for Instruction Coaching. This consists of three important components: The coaching model, the context, and the coach. This process relies on many different aspects of each component. How much experience does the coach have, what coaching model is the school using, and in what context is the coaching occurring?
Rodgers & Rodgers (2007), discuss guiding inquiry as a coaching approach. The coaching is based on asking questions or investigation. In this approach, teachers learn how to change and evolve their teaching practices though asking questions and exploring their own skills. According to Rodgers & Rodgers (2007), change cannot be mandated. There are times when certain things are mandated, such as government policies and reforms, but changing how someone teaches needs to come from within.
“In Fullan’s reasoning, simple changes such as using new, updated forms or revising the dates for ongoing monitoring of student progress probably can be mandated without too much trouble, but changes to how and what we teach are much more complex and likely to fall if simply mandated,” Rodgers & Rodgers, (2007). Changes such as these, need to come from within. It is difficult to get seasoned teachers to accept change. This is one of the reasons why Guiding inquiry is used in these cases. When the teachers lead the change and are invested in it, their ideas will have a better chance of being accepted.
In my experience as an English Teacher, the only person who was involved in the coaching aspect was our curriculum specialist. She would observe us teaching 3 times a year. Then then we would meet with her to discuss the areas we performed well and areas we needed to improve on. These 3 observations are required by the State of New Jersey, but an individual teacher could request more observations if they wanted. I did this my first few years of teaching. I knew I needed more help and that I could become a better, more effective, teacher. Sometimes it’s difficult to hear the negative, but we need to be able to put that aside so we can grow as a teacher and reach our students.
The Interactive Framework for Instruction Coaching breaks down how coaching is done. Whereas guided inquiry is a coaching model. There are many other coaching models that schools can choose from. My school uses the guided inquiry method.
Recently at my school we implemented Professional Learning Communities. All teachers are in PLC and each group gets to decide what they want to present. This follows the Guided Inquiry model as the teachers are deciding, asking questions, and researching. The issue I see in this is that some things that need to be addressed are not being addressed because the teachers decide what gets explored. Instead of the teachers coming up with a list of things to discuss, this should be open to everyone who works with students such as classroom aides, personal aides, therapist and Reading Specialist.
Bean, R. M., Goatley, V.J. (2021). The Literacy Specialist. Leadership and coaching for the classroom, school, and community. 4th ed (374 pgs) Guildford Press.
Rodgers, A., & Rodgers, E. M. (2007). The Effective Literacy Coach: Using Inquiry to Support Teaching and Learning. Teachers College, Columbia University.
They ask you to be honest, but is that is what they really want? When you speak honestly, does it always work out? Should you be honest? Should you speak the truth? You fear when you speak, your heart races, will you hurt someone? Time and time again people ask you, to be yourself. Do they know what they are asking for? I am far too honest at the wrong times. I am insecure and, I never think highly of myself. I need constant reassurances and, Often feel guilty for the things I say and do. You say be yourself and be honest. But the fear is overwhelming.
I am frustrated with myself. No matter how many times someone builds me up, My anxiety and self-doubt creep in. Most of the time I tell myself that I am not good enough. That I can’t do this or that, That everyone else is better than I am. It can’t be helped, after all these years. That I would be more confident But I’m not. I am afraid. I am afraid that the people who love me. That they will grow tired of my doubts. They will grow tired of giving me affirmations, that I don’t believe And I will lose them. I don't want to lose them. I love them. I wish I was different.
I need to learn this lesson and take it to heart. Not everyone is going to like me and I should be okay with that. It is a difficult lesson for someone like me to accept. I want everyone to be happy and be happy with me. But that isn’t always the case.
The World is a Dark and Gloomy Place for Them
The world is a dark and gloomy place for them. Everything they touch shatters. They long to be different. They long to be accepted but yet they tarnish everything. They complain about everything and everyone. Nothing is good enough for them. Nothing makes them happy. I sit back and wonder. Why do they hate so much? We're left with unanswered questions, and insults hurled at us. They strike out, with venom in their words. Time and time again. They strike out before someone strikes them. Never accepting and never knowing what love can be.
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