I was fine when you hurt me. I was fine when you left I was fine when you said I was the best. I was fine when you came back And I say I am fine when you Left again. For I always knew the time would come. So I lie, and I say I am Fine. I am fine. I am fine.
The storm rages on
Though my heart it bleeds
A burst of passion in my soul
As the winds rage on
A squall's wrath makes the windows shake
The night sky electrifies
By the blast of the light
And I sit inside
Wondering why
I hear the rain
As it taps, the wind as it howls and still
I ask why
The illumination of the sky
And I ask myself why
The rains pour down, the thunder explodes
And I ask why
I ask why
Shattered It pushes me down. I can't breathe. How can this happen? I gasp for air as I am torn to pieces. Torn apart. My hopes and dreams went in an instant. The pictures of my future shattered. How do you go on from here? How do you glue a shattered person back together? Pick me up as I am in pieces on the floor. A hollow existence of my former self. Moving through the motions of daily life as I go. My shattered heart ached to be mended. How could you trust again in this shattered life?
Hold on tight, no matter how lousy you feel Cry if you want, but don't give up. It burns and your miserable but you keep fighting Hold on tight, but no one cares Scream out loud, but no one cheers It scorches your soul but you keep fighting Rotten and moldy, frail and rancid, But why do you still hold on? Why do you hold on to rotten dreams, Broken promises, and lies of devotion Let go of those rats, the tricksters, and deceivers Take charge of your life, move on and be happy Turn away from those who wish you harm, They seek to damage and berate you. Take charge of your life, hold on to those Who are true and just, pure, and honorable Hold on tight to those who cheer you on No matter the costs, they will be there Hold on tight to those lift you up who you to succeed Hold on to them and let go of the rest.
As many of you already know, we have decided to shut down CEW as an AI streaming league. I just wanted to thank everyone who came out and watched the show. When it first started, I was terrified of being on camera and while I might have made a fool of myself on numerous occasions; I became more confident as the show went on. This helped me tremendously as I have always been worried about what others thought of me or how they perceived me. I wanted to thank you for coming each Saturday and supporting us and me. We will still be doing matches, but in a different way, and we will let everyone know what we plan when everything is set and running. All our matches will be on YouTube and anything else we stream. Our page will remain as we have other things we want to stream.
Thank you again for all of your support.
Our page is not gone. We will be streaming other things. We are working on streaming Dungeons and Dragons among other table top RPG games. (Vampire Masquerade, Mutants and Masterminds) I will be streaming more video games and doing writing sprints as well as author interviews. Maybe the occasional wrestling match, we shall see.
Stay tuned.
The wind blows as the seasons' change
A change of direction and all is lost
I sit looking out wondering where I went wrong
Lost in an endless sea of winds as my heart
Breaks and scatters on the wind
The current takes me away, rushing past
I float away looking back, seeing I am nothing
Nothing floating away, drifting endlessly
In a sea of doubt, the current takes me
As the tides go out, I am left drifting.
Drifting in and out as the sea roars on
Lost as I wonder where I went wrong.
The wind blows as the seasons' change
A change of direction and all is lost
I sit looking out wondering where I went wrong
Lost in an endless sea of winds as my heart
Breaks and scatters on the wind
The current takes me away, rushing past
I float away looking back, seeing I am nothing
Nothing floating away, drifting endlessly
In a sea of doubt, the current takes me
As the tides go out, I am left drifting.
Drifting in and out as the sea roars on
Lost as I wonder where I went wrong.
How do you help the ones who want no help?
How do you help the ones who will not listen?
Do you let them get hurt again?
Do you help them even after they push you away?
They seek friends who mean nothing to them while pushing away the ones who do.
They stir the drama pot when things are boring.
They go out with guys that treat them poorly.
How do you help them when you were the one pushed away?
Do you forget them and move on?
Do you pray from the sideline?
Or do you cry?
for you are the one who is not wanted?
Many people have anxiety, and most others don’t understand it. They think the person suffering from anxiety is making it up or the person suffering from depression can do something to stop it. It’s not so easy. This is just a look at how Anxiety feels for me.
Heart racing Fear grows Uncontrollable All at once Breathing fast Pacing Worries Uncontrollable All at once Makes no sense No reason at all I can't breathe The walls are closing in No one understands They say I'm making it up No reason at all The walls close in All at once
