Thank You

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As many of you already know, we have decided to shut down CEW as an AI streaming league. I just wanted to thank everyone who came out and watched the show. When it first started, I was terrified of being on camera and while I might have made a fool of myself on numerous occasions; I became more confident as the show went on. This helped me tremendously as I have always been worried about what others thought of me or how they perceived me. I wanted to thank you for coming each Saturday and supporting us and me. We will still be doing matches, but in a different way, and we will let everyone know what we plan when everything is set and running. All our matches will be on YouTube and anything else we stream. Our page will remain as we have other things we want to stream.

Thank you again for all of your support.

Our page is not gone. We will be streaming other things. We are working on streaming Dungeons and Dragons among other table top RPG games. (Vampire Masquerade, Mutants and Masterminds) I will be streaming more video games and doing writing sprints as well as author interviews. Maybe the occasional wrestling match, we shall see.


Stay tuned.

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Forgotten

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The wind blows as the seasons' change 
A change of direction and all is lost 
I sit looking out wondering where I went wrong 
 
Lost in an endless sea of winds as my heart 
Breaks and scatters on the wind 
 
The current takes me away, rushing past 
I float away looking back, seeing I am nothing 
Nothing floating away, drifting endlessly 
In a sea of doubt, the current takes me 
 
As the tides go out, I am left drifting. 
Drifting in and out as the sea roars on 
Lost as I wonder where I went wrong.

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Waves

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The wind blows as the seasons' change 
A change of direction and all is lost 
I sit looking out wondering where I went wrong 
 
Lost in an endless sea of winds as my heart 
Breaks and scatters on the wind 
 
The current takes me away, rushing past 
I float away looking back, seeing I am nothing 
Nothing floating away, drifting endlessly 
In a sea of doubt, the current takes me 
 
As the tides go out, I am left drifting. 
Drifting in and out as the sea roars on 
Lost as I wonder where I went wrong.

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Drama Friends

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How do you help the ones who want no help? 
How do you help the ones who will not listen? 
Do you let them get hurt again? 
Do you help them even after they push you away? 
 
They seek friends who mean nothing to them while pushing away the ones who do. 
They stir the drama pot when things are boring. 
They go out with guys that treat them poorly. 
How do you help them when you were the one pushed away? 
 
Do you forget them and move on? 
Do you pray from the sideline? 
Or do you cry? 
for you are the one who is not wanted?

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Happy Thanksgiving

Happy Thanksgiving to everyone who is celebrating today!

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Anxiety

Many people have anxiety, and most others don’t understand it. They think the person suffering from anxiety is making it up or the person suffering from depression can do something to stop it. It’s not so easy. This is just a look at how Anxiety feels for me.  
 

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Heart racing 
Fear grows 
Uncontrollable 
All at once 
 
Breathing fast 
Pacing 
Worries 
Uncontrollable 
All at once 
 
Makes no sense 
No reason at all 
I can't breathe 
The walls are closing in 

No one understands 
They say I'm making it up 
No reason at all 
 
The walls close in 
All at once 

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Thank You

As many of you already know, we have decided to shut down CEW as an AI streaming league. I just wanted to thank everyone who came out and watched the show. When it first started, I was terrified of being on camera and while I might have made a fool of myself on numerous occasions; I became more confident as the show went on. This helped me tremendously as I have always been worried about what others thought of me or how they perceived me. I wanted to thank you for coming each Saturday and supporting us and me. We will still be doing matches, but in a different way, and we will let everyone know what we plan when everything is set and running. All our matches will be on YouTube as well as anything else we stream. Our page will remain as we have other things we want to stream. Thank you again for all of your support.

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Anxiety Attack

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My entire body shakes. 
My breathing becomes rapid. 
I feel like I can’t catch my breath. 
I hear my heart pounding in my chest. 
I look for a way out, but I’m trapped.  

My hands shake. 
I feel the shaking all over my body. 
I try to calm myself. 
And breathe. 
Just to breathe. 

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Be Courage Enough to Walk Away

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Sometimes it's better to walk away.
Walk away with your head held high. 

It takes more courage to move on then to fight.
It takes more courage to admit defeat, but
is walking away really a defeat.

Is it to defeat to move on?
It is a defeat to move away from toxicity?
Is it defeat to want better? To want more?

Put your strength in things that matter, 
not things that tear you down.

Sometimes it is better to walk away.

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Writing Sprints

Come join me every Sunday night at 10 for writing sprints.

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