The Voice

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The voice in the back of my head

It tells me that I’m not good enough

It tells me that I’m not smart enough

It’s the sweating of my palms

It’s the tightening of my heart

It’s the fear of failing

It’s the fear of trying

The voice in the back of my head

It tells me that I’m not pretty enough

It tells me that I’m not cool enough

It’s the fear of rejection

It’s the fear of defeat

The voice in the back of my head

I tell it to be quiet

I tell it that I am good enough

and smart  and pretty

I am good enough

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A Boy or a Girl

Boy or a Girl

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I longed to hold you.

To see your face, to kiss your feet.

To hear your laughter to hear your cries.

 

I wanted to be the one you came to when life was hard

And I wanted to be the one you came to when life was not.

 

To hold you and love you

To tell you when you were wrong and when you’re right

To be proud of you and watch you succeed

 

Taken from me so young

Before I knew who you were

 

I longed to be your mom

To hold you when you’re sad, and to laugh with you when you’re not

To catch you when you fall and lift up to the sky

 

Taken from me so young, your little heart beating

And now it beats no more

 

To hold you just to know

if you are a boy or a girl

The Face I Wear

The Face I Wear

 

The face I wear is never sad.face

It’s never angry and never mad.

The face I wear never cries.

It’s never bitter but it always lies.

The face I wear covers my pain.

The face I wear covers my fear.

The face I wear hides who am I

It hides my sorrows and hides my pain

The face I wear you like to see.

But the face I wear is always a lie.

The face I wear is what you see.

But that face

is not really me